As I get older, I think I finally am getting wiser. Wiser to know that, go with the flow, try to enjoy when you can.
There is so much that happens in a lifetime. Regrets, sure we all have them. My only regret was to be easier on myself and enjoy life more. But I am not to old to do that now. I always wanted everything to be perfect for my two children. But now I know, you can't do that. You have to let them grow. Thankfully, they did grow and grow into wonderful adults. They both have wonderful partners and my extended family is a joy.
I am so proud of all of them. Chrissy and Erin seem to be picking up my Moms vibe. They bake, they read and have get togethers with their friends.
Each has there unique way of style. Which is great. Erin is my 60's child and Chrissy is more old country style. They both garden and can, they both love cooking. It is wonderful to see them happy.
My boys are an inspiration. Both lost their jobs just before and after Christmas this year. (Not in a very businesslike way either) and have come out for the better. In fact I think they are happier. Devin has learned much this summer with Billy and they have had fun doing it. He is going to school in the fall and Billy is going for a Contractors license. They both have lost weight (no more of the mandatory lunches) and look great. Sometime things that happen are a blessing.
Erin and Billy are starting up their adoption soon, and maybe I will have a another little one to take care of soon.
Lori and Todd have had many setbacks this year, but as my Dad would say.
They have picked themselves up, and kept on moving. They lost a son, a home, bought a new home and it was damaged by storms before they could move in. But they have a new baby and another son, so they must look forward. Bryce was a wonderful boy, I know he is proud of his family.
I miss him very much. The trial was hard (really do not want to talk about that) but the outcome was justified.
Jerry and I are plugging along, getting used to not being able to do as much, less money is not fun. Another year to medicare for me!! What a thing to look forward to! But we are happy, doing our day trips and antiqing and crafts. He just made me a beautiful desk area.
I have my worried of course, as usual. My favorite cousin is ill and I am so scared. She is a wonder. I love her so. But hopefully this week will bring better news. I want a certain someone in my life to get married, I love his lady so much. But I have to be patient and let them lead their own life. Which is hard.
My sister and I, what would we do without each other?
In closing, I guess all I am saying is. I am very grateful and happy. I never would have thought 27 years ago that I would be at peace like this. It all worked out. We survived, my chilren and I. And we are all happy.
Who could ask for more?
