Empty Nest

Somehow I never truly thought of the day when I would face not be needed by the two children.  My Daughter and Son were the main focus of my life always.  As a single Mom, 24/7 was what was going on in their lives.  I guess I must have done a good job because you are supposed to raise your children to live happy, wholesome lives without you.  So why do I feel so empty?  I look to my crafts, not enough, I have become involved in church, not enough (never have been a person to be around alot of women)  My husband and I are (I got married three years ago) are now free to do whatever we want.  But lack of money makes that impossible.  I know there is still much out there for me at 63.  My struggle to become independent and happy myself goes on.  No one wants to become that mother you feel you have to go see, or I saw Mom, check.  You want them to WANT to see you.  To laugh with you.  I know my life is far from over, I just need to get back on my feet and do what I have always done.  Move on.  Go forward.  Be happy.  I will overcome this.